I am researching for new idioms while at the same time writing this blog entry..and you know what??? I find this reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally strange!
It's not like me to be doing this.
I've been working in Edu Plaza Ortigas for 1 year 8 months & 2o days & it tires me out to prepare for classes like this one. I've always relied on my stock knowledge than some recent researches. I've become conceited & overconfident that I could finish the class without even reading the book ahead of time! Usually, I would watch NARUTO few minutes/seconds before the class. That's how irresponsible I have become. And this kind of task still wears me out until now.
I arrived in the office late again, as usual!! One of the AM teachers even labeled me Ms. Consistent, (at least I do have a title) for my consistent tardiness. I didn't mind it also until now.
Until now that Ms. Ashley has reprimanded me about my LATE class yesterday even before I settled down in my station & arrange my things. I felt embarassed, humiliated & stupid although this has happened so many times already. This is like a reminiscence of my first 3 months here. I always committed mistakes & I,whose presence was often "demanded" in the manager's office. I reflected on myself. Why the hell am I like this?? After that I've realized how much I've changed. How much my head has apparently been blown out of proportion. This is not me!! I know! I have to change, before everything's late. I don't want to be overwhelmed with regrets again. I have to do something now. That's how I landed on the IDIOM site.
Well I guess it's the start. I "guess"?? I hope & wish & do believe. That should be the term.
I am now full of apprenhension. Something I'm not prepared of.
I am not asked to attend the Saturday seminar/training on Dec. 5 for all teachers. It's about the new japanese account. I dont know why & either do Mr. Lee & Ms. Jaks. I am clueless! That's been one of the signal for me. A wake up call. I hope I'm realy awakened.
I hope it's not too late....