Rumblings of a Disillusioned Lass

Have you ever been mugged/held up? 

If you've been reading my previous blog posts, I guess there is no need for me to say that it happened to me thrice. Yes 3 times. And all of those involved little to not so much violence and struggles. But I'm not posting this to reminisce those horrifying experiences. I'm typing this to share how those experiences along with friends' and acquaintances' related stories have changed my perspective about life. 

If you've been mugged, then it's inevitable that you become paranoid in so many ways especially when you set footsteps beyond your house' door. Paranoid to the point that your friends and family think you are crazy. You can't really blame us. I always say It's better to be this way than to experience it again. puurahmis! 

I may be taking it 'half-humoredly' right now but let me say that it still haunts me otherwise. 

The worst effect it had to me was the fact that I was disillusioned about everything. I was already a cynical & a skeptical lass before it happened so just imagine how I am now.  

I want to trust life. to trust people. I know how great it feels like to see the world from an innocent child's eyes. When everybody can be you friend. 

But how can I be when I've seen the small dark side of it? 

"My Commute's" Milestone

I've been lazy for the past few months and to be honest, none of my most recent updates were post-worthy. I know that's pretty harsh to say about myself /my blog but just being honest here. I always had a lot of inspirations of what to post, but by the time I got to face the computer, the excitement has already waned. :(

But this time, I had to make an effort, especially since I consider this period of my life as a milestone. 

My Commute --- that's the name of my blog. This documents my ramblings and sentiments about varied topics and this was started when I landed a full time job while studying which became my bread & butter ever since. When I started this, I thought it was a major leap towards a broader horizon. But just recently, I realized I didn't go too far. From August of 2009 (this blog's anniv) til my last post, all of those journeys were in fact just short trips along small streets. But this time, my real journey begins. Right now, I feel like I'm not just treading streets but major highways. Real pathways to wherever my destination is. Like highways in urban areas, the journey is more dangerous, more risky and more uncertain. But I'm willing to take it all. I'm just starting a new life and I'm not gonna let my apprehensions get in the way. 

So sit back let's tread this together. 

^__^

Semana Santa Kita-kita

How's everybody doing? I hope you are all enjoying your vacation. 

Looking at my last post, I realized I've been MIA for like almost 2 months. Time really passes by quickly. Wew!

I miss the blogosphere. I miss reading (stalking) people's blogs. I miss my Internet life. Where has it gone to? 

Anyway, It's a long vacation for most of us. Semana Santa or Holy Week is the time people get to have their vacations. Let's not forget that it's also a time for reunions! 

Yes REUNIONS! 

But I'm not talking about a really big reunion here. Just a simple get-together. 

A year has just passed since our college graduation day but it feels like just yesterday....

I have a 4-day weekend yet I chose not to go on vacation/hometown. I'm not financially ready so I didn't have much choice but to spend the oh sooo looong days under the scorching heat of Manila sun. I thought it was something to endure but I'm glad I decided to meet with my college friends/classmates. 

Last Thursday, my college friends/classmates had a get-together at Ate Jeng's house. Everything was unplanned yet it turned out great & really fun. Most stores were closed so we ended up just having ice cream, buns & pancit canton. I guess what they say about the company being more important than the venue is true. We had a little drink & talk. The talk/chat was the best part. It felt better seeing them/ourselves talk about work life instead of thesis/projects & expenses. All of us who attended this get-together are already working and in varied fields/industries. I remember back in the day, 1 or 2 years ago, I was the only one sharing about work life since I was then a working student. They seemed very interested to hear stories about work stress, bosses & colleagues. But at that moment, they were the ones sharing. I loved the feeling. Just listening and at the same time learning. It was a novel experience. Varying experiences, bosses, fields, industries, office locations added more color to the conversation. That time, I felt very proud of them. We made it through the grueling tasks & stresses of the college life and now here we are, enjoying the fruits of our labor.  

I just feel a little sad that although we spent 4 years in the classroom, I never got to be very close to them. I never got to know them better. I'm only making up for those lost moments just now. 

Here we are: 

(I'm the one in pink) 

When I see and meet these people, I am always reminded of how hard I worked and struggled just to get here. It makes me treasure very moment. 

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I don't want to burst your summer bubble guys but our vacation is almost over. Going back to work is necessary but I really hope you all had a great soul-searching time. ^__^

Just Starting...

I am starting a new journey with this book that my new employer has given me. 

Actually, I was quite surprised to when on my first day of work..they gave me a set of office stuff inluding this book. It was such a warm welcome that I almost cried. 

HEE!!!! 

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On a different note, I am happy that more & more stores are using the recyclable paper instead of plastic bags. Just imagine how greatly it'll lessen our non-biodegradable wastes. I saw MINI STOP & JOLLIBEE starting this campaign a few weeks ago. 

By the way, how's everybody doing? I don't have that much time to stay on the world wide web so I rarely get to update this & the rest of my social networking sites. 

I miss you all!! 

Let's all stay happy & healthy!! 

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Musings

Since I've resigned from my previous employer..I feel like I've been wandering the streets. Not literally though,...But it was exhilarating I can't explain. I felt emancipated & finally I can do whatever I want. While looking for another full time job, I've decided to have a part-time online teaching job to sustain my daily needs. The flow of money stops but that doesn't mean my bills will cease as well. 

So my work for the day starts at 7pm and ends at 12midnight. This may be hard..knowing that aside from my own bills, I have my family back in my hometown to support..but I can't explain the feeling. I feel so optimistic about the future. At last, I have something to look forward to again..like how I was in my younger years. It feels good to be a child at heart & spare yourself of the burdens & worries of the world. 

So on during my free time I wander around SM Megamall. It was not to go shopping..I just wanted to .... feel & savor the moment. I observe people, & immerse myself with the novelty of the experience. One time, out of the blue I decided to grow a plant so I bought this flowering plant. 

The store @Sm  Megamall

I was definitely enamored by these.

I still remember how blissful it feels to be surrounded by plants. Back in our hometown, my mother in her younger years loved to plant & I must say she & my father definitely has a green thumb. Unfortunately I didn't inherit it. I guess my thumb is pink? (hehehe)

Pimpled me.

So here's the one I decided to grow..I started with one first...

..but.... 

I was just convinced that I don't have a green thumb when this one eventually died. =( I don't know what happened. 

This new lifestyle has also led mo to doing things I've been longing to do..

like...reading...

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..eating.....

... drinking..

playing...

..seeing the sunrise above the busy city...

seeing the sun set...

& just live.

Yes that's right. I've been living..and not just surviving. And eventhough worries about my future expenses threaten... I can't seem to stop smiling these days.