Mondays used to cheer me up when I was in high school. I got so giddy knowing that I could again meet my crush & have my 'baon'..but as we grow old things change. some for the better.some for worse.
Today is Monday..but it has a sad connotation now. This is the day employees loathe. for it is the day farthest from the weekend. the day -off! But anyway I was full of excitement for this day coz I'll get to meet my students. my friends as I call them. but the excitement vanished as I experienced a pain on my lower abdomen upon waking up. My dreaded day came. The first day of my menstruation - the day when I have my dysmenorrhea.
dysmenorrhea - how I cursed it! no one knows. How I
felt like just taking away my life when i have this. how all the hopes & dreams that fill me & keep me alive got all sucked up by this 'simple' disease. it was hell!!
I curled up, down, turned aside, backwards, forward. different positions I tried to temporarily ease the pain until the dolfenal (mefenamic acid) takes effect. the 1 1/2 hours I've endured is unimaginable. I felt hopeless & limited. I cried like a child left buy her mom. I looked funny, stupid & pathetic. My sister didn't know what to do. She just kept fannning me which just made me more feeling like puking. When the bout begins, I immediately pray I'd fall asleep. Coz as I wake up all the pain will surely be gone. All I have to wait is just that moment- sleep. but a while ago it seemed like decades. I can't remember how long exactly. I magined everything sweet & nice. I tried to condition my mind to think of good things... I daydreamed. it helped. then the daydream became a dream. I was sleeping. That sleep or shall I call it a nap was a bliss. It was my refuge.
.when I woke up! everything seemed alive! the sun is brighter. the air was fresher & life was more promising. It was another life!!
Some people have their second lives..but I have so many....this life I'm living now is my 96th . I had my very first menstruation at the age of 14 & I'm now 21. So 8 years. Each year with 12 months. Each month is with new & redeemed life.
So although this disease is a curse to me I still consider it a blessing...only in grotesque disguise. It is my monthly reminder that life is indeed beautiful.
So this 96th life of mine will not go to waste. I will not allow it! I have to be happy & justify that I'm worthy of this.
Happy Monday everybody!!
ah.. dysmenorrhea.. avoid coffee or cafeine (which we crave for especially when it's about time) and take vitamin E..
ReplyDeletealthough coffee is a downer for me, i still dream that it will somehow keep me awake when i feel sleepy. but i do my best to avoid it a week before my supposed first day of period. it helps. and when i have dysmenorrhea or migraine, i drink coffee. it has calming effect. Vitamin E helps a lot too...
btw, maybe i'll just email you about life here in Korea in general or email me first your specific questions or interest and i'll try my best to answer them very well... and about finding a job, you can check ate Betchay's blog: buhaykorea.com for scholarships and other working opportunities she posts...
thanks a lot for the response!! and also for following~
ReplyDeleteand thank you so much for these helpful pieces of advice... I'll start watching my foood intake from now on! your comment above just made me realize somethin'
ReplyDeletedysmenorrhea - the "painful weeping of the uterus"...hehe
ReplyDeleteyou have such a positive way of looking at it..~ I have it every month too and I used to take Mefenamic Acid (which is very effective for me)but the OB-Gyne doc told me that mefenamic acid can actually make your menstruation stop or make it less (probably..less unclean blood is coming out)..so she prescribed me Buscopan Plus (that's buscopan+paracetamol).. it takes sooo long to work but my period did go on for a longer period of time and my lower abdomen feels...hmm..cleaner/less full?? hahaha...usually when I took Dolfenal my period lasted only for 2 days and was barely 10 tbsps..(that's just an estimate..i didn't actually..you know..ew..hehe)..
goodluck on your 97th! (i'm amazed you actually calculated the days)..^^,
dysmenorrhea - the "painful weeping of the uterus"...hehe
ReplyDeleteyou have such a positive way of looking at it..~ I have it every month too and I used to take Mefenamic Acid (which is very effective for me)but the OB-Gyne doc told me that mefenamic acid can actually make your menstruation stop or make it less (probably..less unclean blood is coming out)..so she prescribed me Buscopan Plus (that's buscopan+paracetamol).. it takes sooo long to work but my period did go on for a longer period of time and my lower abdomen feels...hmm..cleaner/less full?? hahaha...usually when I took Dolfenal my period lasted only for 2 days and was barely 10 tbsps..(that's just an estimate..i didn't actually..you know..ew..hehe)..
goodluck on your 97th! (i'm amazed you actually calculated the days)..^^,
hahaahha thanks!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'll try that buscopan! I hope it will also be effective to me!
ah I don't have time & funds to go to an OB..good for you you have one!!